Resolute

You say you want a resolution... I know that's not the real lyrics. duh. But isn't that what everyone is talking about the first few weeks of the year? This I know, resolutions don't work. They are like a bottle rocket that takes off....... and then duds out mid air. I can't name one person I know that actually keeps their resolutions! Not one!

I do know that I have always struggled with sticking things out. Sure, I can get anything done and done well if I'm all fired up about it. But, I fizzle out if all the sudden the fire goes out, or it gets hard, or I have a bad day, etc, etc, etc. This has really been highlighted to me over the past few years and it has come up again. So, this year will be the first year that I can say I was diligent. I looked up diligence in the back of my bible and it said, "characterised by hard work and earnest effort". To me, that means doing what you don't want to do, as if you did want to do it. Boy, that's a hard one. But it really does effect everything. That's why it's changing. At the root of it I think must be just plain laziness!

I know that I want God to change me this year. I have really felt the need to learn the bible. Not just as a book, but as a necessity for life. We moved to Atlanta to help with this church plant, and dropped ourselves smack dab in the middle of a spiritual war. I need to be protected and strong! I also want to know how to teach my kids the very words of God that will arm them for battle too. My sister bought me a new bible for Christmas...good start. I want to want to. I want to love the bible like so many people do. If you haven't read The Heavenly Man by Brother Yun and Paul Hattaway READ IT. I had a new outlook on my spoiled self after reading that book, and I'm set to read it again. We have bibles in every hotel room in America, yet people in other countries cry, pray and fast, asking God for just one page.

On a lighter note; tried a really good pasta tonight. Supreme Green Pasta was found in the Vegetarian Times Cookbook that I snagged from my mom's house at Christmas. Pretty much you cook some garlic and onion in some butter, add either steamed broccoli or some spinach to it along with like a half cup milk, puree it in a food processor and toss it over some pasta! It was so good! Those of you who are cheese friendly can pop some parm on the top, but it almost doesn't need it. I need to post my last two new recipes that I've tried...but not tonight.

Real life resumes tomorrow. Sof is back to pre-k, Zoe and I will pick up school again and finish the day off with drawing class. Lessons plans will have to wait for now. I have an ill husband on the couch that needs transferred to the bed. Then I'm going to have a little 'bible dessert'. It is the bread of life!